“Déjà Vu All Over Again”: Learning Again a Lesson from Losing
I write in my testimony that my earlier marriage, parenting, and ministry failed, that it was because my understanding of Christian living and ministry was performance based – meaning that I was highly motivated to be the world’s best Christian, a Champion for Christ, and also that I depended hugely on hype and emotions (fear, guilt, and ego) to drive my performance at home and in the church. I have been in recovery from that failure for 33 years.
Now, as of recent, I must add to my testimony another failure: This one driven,
- not just by a sensible need to be physically healthy, athletic, and without decline even into my later years (“strength unabated” as was Moses and Joshua), but
- by a stubborn desire to improve each year despite my age and family history.
From this experience I have learned (again) that the outcomes God gives are
- not the result of heroic performances, but
- the result of taking time each day to include his Provisions of Grace into our lives,
- always redemptive (appropriate to and sufficient for our health and happiness),
- according to his Law of Sowing and Reaping, and
- always “without regret” (ametamélētos) (Romans 11:29).
DonLoy Whisnant/The Grace Perspective/Journey Notes 16E28